Doctors have bullied me about my weight for years, but obesity has given me the armor I needed to survive.I call Bullshit. This is learned helplessness and oppositional defiance. Their "treatments" are futile and you have finally realized it.
But you still blame yourself.
Not complying with their advice does not mean you choose to be fat.
One Thousand Dollars says given the right information you would decide not to be fat or depressed.
And you would blame the right people.